Who wants to be a millionaire?

If you top CNBC's upcoming stock trading game, you could win a million bucks. Lemme know if you're interested, and I'll send you a referral invite. Registration deadline is March 5th.

call me an attention whore, a brat, or a doormat,

but i am so fucking pissed right now i can't stand it,

there's no one to pick a fight with,

and i'm exhausted so,

i'm just gonna sleep.

But really.

!$#(&%!(&$*#!!!

Shoba passed on today.

She'd been battling cancer for years

and her tiny body finally gave out.

Rest in peace.

~*~*~*

The universe gives you what you need,

not what you really, really wish for, or what would make your life easier.

If you pay close enough attention, you will realize that the recurrent themes in your life are the same growth opportunity hitting you over the head yet again, so maybe this time you'll get it right.

And if you are centered and grateful, you will see each new day as a gift chosen expressly for you.

~*~*~*


“We are not human beings on a spiritual journey. We are spiritual beings on a human journey.”
Stephen R. Covey

disappointments

I'd forgotten how quickly gossip spreads and convolutes itself at work.

I casually mentioned to a few coworkers that I'd given serious consideration to auditioning for American Idol this year, since I'm now 28 and this would be my last chance to try out. The current talk is that I'd auditioned last year for the show airing next year (?) and that I'm under some sort of contractual obligation not to discuss what had happened, but I'd actually already met Paula and Randy and Simon.

Anyway.

I'm planning on taking lessons at the Septien Center for Artist Training, using my forthcoming bonus towards tuition. I called last Friday and learned that I'd missed the window for enrollment for the current session, which began today. I wasn't prepared to start so soon, but I kinda feel I got left behind. The next class starts in April.

I have doubts. And Patrick is not so much supportive as merely accommodating, stepping aside to make way for these tentative steps when a (morale) boost would have been more to the point.

I dunno. I don't know I don't know I don't know .

In other news I lost another friend. It was a long time coming, and it's been over for a month now, I guess. Or has it been two? Almost. She exited gracefully stage left, assuring me that she'd already taken her breaks and lunches long before I needed to go, and explaining that she needed to be elsewhere running errands and such. How Texan.

I worry that the primary barriers to my happiness are my inability to identify and ask for the things I want, and my reluctance to fight for such things.

technical difficulties

I've had a system upgrade, which incidentally led to a rewrite of my music collection. Finally back online and plugged-in musically. I've since imported Andrea Bocelli's "Amore", which includes "Somos Novios", his duet with Christina Aguilera.

I'm such a sucker for love songs.

~*~*~*
Somos Novios (It's Just Impossible) - Andrea Bocelli ft. Christina Aguilera

Andrea:
Somos novios
Pues los dos sentimos mutuo amor profundo
Y con eso ya ganamos lo mas grande de este mundo
Nos amamos, nos besamos, como novios, nos deseamos
Y hasta aveces, sin motivo, sin razon, nos enojamos

Christina:
Somos novios
Mantenemos un cariño limpio y puro
Como todos, preocuramos el momento mas obscuro

Andrea & Christina:
Para hablarnos, para darnos el mas dulce de los besos
Recordarte que color son los cerezos
Sin hacer mas comentarios
Somos novios
It's just impossible
Nos amamos, nos besamos, como novios, nos deseamos
Y hasta aveces, sin motivo, sin razon, nos enojamos

Christina:
Sin motivo, sin razon

Andrea:
Somos novios

Andrea & Christina:
Mantenemos un cariño

Andrea:
Limpio y puro

Andrea & Christina:
Como todos, preocuramos el momento mas obscuro
Para hablarnos, para darnos el mas dulce de los besos
Recordarte que color son los cerezos
Sin hacer mas comentarios, somos novios
Somos novios
Siempre novios
Somos novios

~*~*~*

Somos Novios - English translation

Andrea:
We are lovers
Therefore we share a profound, mutual love
And with this, we gain the best of the world
We love, we kiss, and like lovers we desire each other
And yet, at times, without motive or reason, we get mad

Christina:
We are lovers
We maintain a love so clean and pure
Like all, we worry in moments of darkness

Andrea & Christina:
To talk and to give the sweetest of kisses
Remebering you as the color of cherries
Without making comments
We are lovers
It's just impossible
We love, we kiss, and like lovers we desire each other
And yet, at times, without motive or reason, we get mad

Christina:
Without motive or reason

Andrea:
We are lovers

Andrea & Christina:
We maintain a love

Andrea:
So clean and pure

Andrea & Christina:
Like all, we worry in moments of darkness
To talk and to give the sweetest of kisses
Remebering you as the color of cherries
Without making comments
We are lovers
Always lovers
We are lovers

~*~*~*

If the tune sounds somewhat familiar, it's because it's the same melody as Perry Como's "It's Impossible".

i went to the mall today

to check out Jessica Simpson's Ladonna pumps. They are fabulous, though you need to go a half-size up. I was going to blog about tortoiseshell pumps, but an IE imp shut the window after I'd already scrapped all my links. Sht.


Anyway. I left Sears with a $20 circle skirt that I love love love. Do stop by JC Penney's, where clearance items are currently 75% off the original prices.

I started Jonathan Safran Foer's "Everything is Illuminated". I feel like I've been conversing with Borat after he'd swallowed a thesaurus.