Friday, July 29, 2005

The universe gives you what you need

And, apparently, what I need sometimes is a solid kick in the head.

Times like these I wonder if there is a god, and if that god is listening. And then God smiles.
I'm grateful for the lesson. I've been set straight, and we are prepared to look forward now. I can only hope that the universe concurs.

While waiting for its reply I will be enjoying the best apricots I've ever had: a smooth, tart skin with delicate fuzz, encasing sweet juicy flesh...practically perfect.

Thursday, July 28, 2005

we may not get the apartment after all

just as we feared, our past mistakes, the choices we made and still regret, have come back to haunt us.

for a while the life we long for seemed so real and so close we could almost taste it.

there is a glimmer of hope, but i dare not chase it. i cannot take the heartbreak.

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

this is going to take some getting used to

It's quarter past midnight in the garden of good and evil, if said garden is on Central DST. I've opted to move to Blogger for a simpler and less intruded-upon blogging experience. Made a mistake and ended up with two blogs, though of the two this is my preferred handle.

The disposable packaging remnants of dinner (Chili's-to-Go and Luby's) are all over the bed, as is Patrick. The room is comfortably cool for the first time all season, thanks to the new portable a/c. My own sleep schedule is shot: went to be last night at nine, woke up for no reason at 1 am and finally downed some sleeping pills and went back to bed at 2. The urgent ringing of the cell jarred me awake at 4:44. Luz: "Hi. Are you ready?" Hardly. We both were supposed to be at work at 5.

Luz, Blanca and I had seafood lunches at Luby's: baked almondine(sic), "Cajun étouffée" (redundant of course) and lemon basil salmon. We each left $2 tips for the nice waiter from El Salvador.

Luz dropped me off after work, and dropped a bomb too. It's too soon to post the revelation: i'll have to chew on it for a bit.

The latest gift from Harry and David was waiting at the doorstep. I took six apricots for Patrick and myself and gave the rest to Luz to share with Blanca tomorrow. Slept through the afternoon and woke up to a much cooler room after Patrick bought and set up the aircon. Happy happy. Got to play Guild Wars for a bit without the PCs overheating and shutting down, as they've been wont to do this past week.

Tuesday, July 26, 2005