recently discovered truths

i hate myself.
i hate my life.
i'm bored out of my freaking skull. And I still don't know what I want or how to get it. It's a lot easier to pretend I gave up a great maybe for The One Great Love.

Cue theme: Ate Shawie's ~Bituing Walang Ningning~

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In other news, Patrick has a murderous pinched nerve in his lower back, so he's been out for the count most of today. He's also been slightly feverish and coughing badly these past few days, which I can only guess might be the flu since I had a flu shot late last year, and haven't gotten what he has despite lowered resistance (from having worked overnight setting shoe mods these past few days) and continued exposure.

Tomorrow we're headed for the USCIS (formerly INS) Dallas district office to get an official paper of some sort regarding the status of his 2001 petition.